Since I broke up with Rafael (Friday July 25, 2014) I've had time to get back in touch with Eddie, Kevin, Ramon, AJ, and Andy. I sent them friends requests on Facebook and all accepted. They were all happy to hear from me again. This was a big surprise to me. I thought they all hated me for the letter I wrote them back in 2008. Not the case whatsoever. All the hate I thought was real, was in my head. I hated myself for doing what I did. I turned on myself. Funny that Rafael on one of his attempts to take me back said "I'm worried you will block me or delete me from Facebook". The karma police were at it again... he made me do that on MySpace to my friends. He gave me the ultimatum. And now since I'm no longer with him, now he doesn't want me to do that to him. Well guess what, fool? That was never me. This was my response, "I won't do that to you. You were the one who made me change. You were the one who made me block and remove people from my life that I cared about. You never had a reason to feel like I would betray your trust. And you know I wouldn't stand someone crossing the line. So no I won't delete you or block you. I just won't talk to you as much as I used to. We'll stay friends, but to be honest, I have a lot of resentment toward you." Karma didn't win this time... but it was pretty close. He got lucky I'm not a bitch.
I've learned something from all this... when you feel like running away so many times... do it and don't look back. Because if you stay... it's gonna happen over and over and over again... and you'll always be running.